I am feeling rather shitty. Let's list out my problems, yay.

1. My tao is screwed. I can only jie until zhuan, but even so, I've lost my sitdroptwist, xijiao sucks, pa sucks. Great.
2. I'm going to screw all the tests. How fun.

Ugh, why did the school come up with such a stupid idea of block tests? No doubt, it IS fairer, but don't they think that it's adding extra and unnecessary pressure and stress on us? I mean, what the hell, 6 tests in 2 days. We'd probably end up not doing as well as we would have had they been just plain, simple common tests, and in the end, they'll say, "Oh, their results aren't as good as last year's batch. Let's pile them more work to make them better, yay." and we'll all go after the school management with choppers and the entire population of ny will be convicted of first-degree murder and we'll all be sentenced to life imprisonment and-

You get my point.


Jeanne and Olly came today. Honestly, I'm rather scared of Jeanne. She's such an intimidating person. But she's like, THE Jeanne. So I guess she HAS to be intimidating. Sigh. I'm guess I'm just afraid of seniors. Period.

Many times, I do feel like putting in my very very best for gym, but that determination only lasts for a while, and then, it's gone, and I'm back to my lazy self. I see the pressure and stress the rest undergo, and I want to back out. But you can't succeed without suffering, and well, I just don't know. I really don't know. I'm really confused.

And to all who are going for comps:
Jiayou. Train your hardest. Comps is only a month away. And while what the seniors say is true, you guys must not give up. Persevere and continue to train. Aim to be like Jeanne. Put your best in every single tao that you jie, and as long as you do your very very best, I'm sure everyone will be able to see it, and we'll all be proud of you. Train hard.